string cheese can one boy eat in a day?
I'll tell you. Today he had 6 pieces.
SIX.
So I have been trying to be healthy around here.
I've cut out (almost) all sodas from my diet, relying on water.
I joined Curves in June and have been going 3 times a week at least.
I've been aware of reducing my portions and eating healthier (although I haven't been cutting out sweets and stuff, cause I think I'd die if I did that so I am just reducing those as well).
And today I went to the gym and got weighed in for the first time since July.
I am three pounds heavier. And everywhere except my calves and hips (which remained the same) has grown. By an inch.
WTF?
Talk about a freaking downer.
So, why, again, am I leaving the house every night to work out? Why am I denying my self the true pleasure of a Coca Cola Classic? Why am I saying no to that second cookie when I *REALLY* want it? Why??? When it's obvious that my efforts at cutting back and being healthy are completely backfiring?? What is the freaking point of all this, when everything I have done the past few months has meant absolutely NADA?
I am upset. I am angry. I am frustrated.
I am tired... TIRED of working out. TIRED of drinking gallons of water. TIRED of it all.
arghhhghg............................................
7 comments:
Oh, my heart hurts for you. How discouraging. Maybe its muscle. What sort of explaination/encouragement did the Curves staff have to offer?
The Curves staff said to me, "So, what went wrong?"
Like I FREAKING KNOW!! I thought I was doing great! :p It's really frustrating now. I feel like they aren't being the most helpful people (so why am I paying them $25 a month for the next forever??), and all I am doing is spinning my wheels. I was doing the circuit 3 times a week adn if I got in there a fourth I would do the elliptical machine for half an hour. I have even been upping my tension on that machine so I could sweat more. I actually left there crying last night without working out (how pathetic! LOL). I am better this morning, more determined to find what *I* need to do. I guess it wa the ladies at Curves telling me how quickly I would see results by doing WHAT THEY TOLD ME that ahs me so upset. Since there are NO results. Just worseness. :p
oh and Liane - BE CAREFUL!! That is the reason why I don't use exacto knives. I *always* cut myself open. And of course then I am bleeding all over my project. It's never good. Maybe it's a genetic thing. I think dad cuts himself whenever he exactos too. :)
Wait...when the hell did you get a blog?
jess, don't get discouraged! i know it way sucks that it doesn't seem like the curves has done anything, but don't you feel good after a good workout, don't you get refreshed and have more energy, isn't it a little easier to chase tickly boy around now? you are doing wonderful, and eventually the results will be more physically noticeable, but be happy with the mental results you get after the workout. i love you and think you are beautiful always!
Um... August or so? Whenever Melinda moved to Korea.
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